Dark spaces in my mind
So i really can no longer take living here. I am miserable. I dont have a bed and the reason why I havent bought one is beucase it will symbolize to me that I will be in this place even longer. I dont see me having a real job any sooner though I want one and I just cant do this. My sister is a bitch, my mother is … and its just that I am goin insane in this place. I see no furutre for me. I have two fukkin degrees umm that means nothing. I apply to jobs i get nothing, mind you these are entry level positions. I take it as a sign that I am not meant to do them but what am I meant to do? My inert desire to leave here burns daily but I dont know how I Am gonna make it out of here. I am frustrated and now I am overqualified. I see walls and though they have an ending I am having a difficult time climbing these walls. I am sad I put on a face to let the world know that I am ok but I am not. ( I wrote this post in a dark room at night lol)
You pass me I pass me and i wnt you but i cant
Eternally grateful that i have met someone who lives according to the wind. I mean i like to think I live according to the wind but this person got me beat and quite refreshing to build this.. . I am a little drunk and the the hand signal is two circles with ur finger of ur head. People say oo because i drunk alcohol i did this that and the third but honestly the alcohol helped me think better especially when it comes to deciphering non relation
I want you more everyday -_- and i shouldnt
wat the eff is wrong with me. Honestly should have moved on emotionally but i believe the hype that other ppl believe…
Graduation Blues
So i graduated .. with a masters in science. But i feel the same way. Empty in sad… i feel conflicted cause I dont have a job .. i havent done anything in my life… i try not to have these self loathing thoughts but when i go on facebook I get sad… Maybe I should deactivate it… -_-
Q:Are you going to "The Beatles: The Lost Concert" movie premier in a few weeks?
Anonymous
no y you asked?
Happy Mother’s day
was gonna write a post about mother’s day but I feel very selfish and a bad person to write what im feeling! Feelings do past right… welp Happy mother’s day peeps!
shortcomings - Education and Professional
Sometimes I really wish! Like really wish I knew I would get into engineering before high school. I would have applied to more engineering schools. I went on facebok and saw someone else who is a chemical engineer like me. She went to my high school and bam, though she posts all these pictures of partying and drunkeness… She did all this research and landed herself some good internships. And even better has a job after graduation. But not me. I honestly would have gone to a better school with a better ChemE department. Albeit my school’s ChemE department wasn’t bad but I would go to ne with more connections. Sounds like Im making excuses for myself right and my inability to be a winner!! But in the back of my head I believe the notion that it will al work out! I know this tenet to be true!
Something Clever This Way Comes...: I'm not sure why so many people want to jump into relationships
I relly liked this post. Sometimes I find myself thinking why am I not in a relationship when everyone around me seems to be in one… I begin to doubt myself and think am I ugly do I have nothing to offer to the table. But then I go to sleep or wait an hr and realize that I have a lot to offer.. I just wait till the timing is right and what will be will be..
They aren’t always amazing, and sometimes you don’t get it right on the first, second, or fifth try.
- chill out
- learn about yourself
- be patient
- find people who respect, support, and love you
- love yourself (this is so you are not waiting for someone else to love you to…
Source: runningwinded
Pieces of My Heart: 40 Questions Everyone Is Afraid to Ask Themselves
I am gonna answer three questions!! Dont know which three yet!
- If today was the last day of your life, would you want to do what you are about to do today?
- What worries you most about the future?
- Are you holding on to something that you need to let go of?
- If you had a friend who spoke to you,in the same way that you sometimes speak…
Source: marcandangel.com
Judgmental 1
listening to some music. I was bout to reveal something on my tublr but i got scared. I dont know why. I think i got scare even more when i saw someone like 2 posts down from dashboard post the same thing i was gonna put up and i thought…thats kind of finish to write that down. I guess I am judgmental. Im scare to re-read what i just wrote because I fear it will make absolutely no sense! Ha ha ha
*Called it judgmental because I feel like very soon I will have some more judgmental posts.
